Im Baaaaaccckkk!!!!!

hello fellow bloggers, Im back! Yes, i know it has been a while - so long in fact i forgot my password ... hmm. So Im going to let you in on a few little things that have happened in my life the past 6-7 weeks!!

Well - My E-girl turned from gorgeous weet little bubba girl to, MONSTER! This is her new name because she is in fact. A Monster!!! She walks, she gets into everything, we are at my mums house which my brother & his wife are living in until they can buy - they are any minute of having there own little baby, Monster got into the babys room, found the shampoo, opened it and tipped it all on the carpet. She also got to the hot chocolate powder, she got into my friends fireplace - turns out she doesnt like the taste of ash. She has attitude, she bites herself when i say no, she bashes her cousin with the tv remote... As i said, a monster! 

So along with my monster rangling skills, I am dealing with a man child .... Yes thats douchebag Captain Awesome. Hes being a bit of a panzy at the moment (nice words mel, his mother might read this) and is currently in QLD at his mummys house where he has been for the past 2 weeks (once again mel, nice words) thats a whole blog post for another day!!!

So as i said Myself & Monster are stayin at nanny and pops house with my brother & his wife and baby to be, its awfully squishy here, Im hoping to have my own house pretty soon, Yep thats right im moving back to the city!!!!!! Woo Hoo! Finally after 2.5 years og country life, mummas a city girl again!! I dont even care that it takes me 10 minutes to get through traffic just to grab some milk &  e thomfrbread rather than it being alot easier to walk to woolies to drive back in the country!! I am city bound  again!! I can smell the pollution from the traffic & hear the sirens, but i dont care - I Love It Here!!!!!!!! Plus i actually have babysitters here, I even went to FAB on saturday (massive music festival on the foreshore) I left home at 11.30am got home on 4am sunday morning & Ella was sleeping perfectly & I had a freaking ball. I acted like a 21 year old, I met new people who didnt talk about nappies or teething, I danced so hard that my legs hurt on sunday. I had so much fun i never complained about how bad i needed a greasy kebab!!

So Me & The Monster have turned a new page in our book, We are getting there in the small amount of space we have here, we have our family and we have each other - We may not have awesome, but we have each other & thats all that matters!!

 Stay tuned to here more of our city life adventures xo

My wonderful mummy friend!

Look at me.... 2 posts in one day!!!

This one is not going to have ANY complaining at all, this one is me being super mooshy & grateful for my wonderful mummy friend (she wont have a name because i dont know if she wants everyone to know how awesome she is).

This wonderful mummy friend of mine has been my savior since having miss E, even before i had her! I met her when i was 15 weeks pregnant, she to was pregnant but much further along then me. She gave me all sorts of advice and i remember feeling so overwhelmed & had no idea what she was going on about but i bloody do now!! When i was in labor she sent me a photo of her breastfeeding saying 'this will be you tomorrow' & i just could not wait to have my little monster latched on (something mummy friend taught me about).

She gave me 3  nappie boxes full of clothes for my baby which were sizes 00000-0 and im onky just running out now!!! Also she told me about these crazy nappy things (MCNs) and obviousky seen the 'what the-im too lazy for that shit' look on my face so she gave me 4 of hers & sent me home to play around with them & i came around to the idea and ordered 10 for my baby, then tonight she gave me 12 of them, one that i always loved seeing on her baby and one that was pretty new & i know it hurt her to give away because it was her favorite. Bless. Plus in her giving me free stuff she has given me a change table & a freaking high chair in pretty mint condition i might add!! As i said, savior.

Its not just her generosity that i adore, its her wonderful, beautiful,caring personality, she has helped me so much in my mummy days, calls me out on my shit & always gives me an honest opinion. I think she is a bit of a supermum (even though i dont think she likes being called that - she is). Shes pretty bloody awesome and im so happy shes my mummy friend!!!

I best be off now to go hang my new nappies on the line!!

Mummy friend - you know who you are & I love you & appreciate everything you are xoxoxo

Killing time ...

Hi everybody!! Im here today blooging because well im pretty bad at keeping up with it quite possibly because i have 3 followers and i know 2 of them in real life so i ramble on at them anyway so i dont feel like i need to keep my 'fans' up to date as i have none!! Also because im killing time before we go to a BBQ, this weekend has gone so slow!!! Seriously. Its been so nice and sunny and warm this weekend i even dressed E girl without a skivvy & socks (I am known to overdress my child) even put her pool up and finally got her in her bikini i bought ages ago but its been to cold to put on her (i will post photos soon, as soon as i know how to), we spent 15 minutes in the sun this afternoon & awesome freaked out because her arms went a little pink, couldnt be the copious amounts of sunscreen we put on her!! So now we are back inside watching 'milly molly' while awesome yells at the tv because its 'stupid show and feels like torture' & E girl plays with everything but the million toys she has! So awesome 'DO YOU NOW UNDERSTAND WHY YES I NEED A GLASS OF WINE WHEN E GOES TO BED AFTER WATCHING ABC & SINGING & SAYING NO & CHANGING CLOTH NAPPIES 20 TIMES A DAY BECAUSE EBAY HAVENT DELIVERED MY EXTRA LINERS' ah hah. Awesome has been home since thursday because he has had a few wisdom teeth pulled and getting 2 more pulled tomorrow - yay - so its been o my mouth hurts, o i cant do that because i just had teeth out can you get the baby because she keeps oulling at my laptop cord. I, being female & using my brain would go to the other end of the house and sit at the table to do my work nit in the loungeroom where E plays, but thats just me!

Im now off to change yet another cloth nappy!!! Thanks for stopping by xo

R U OK? Hold on while i make a cuppa...

Im writing today because im a little peeved off at the way some people are being total douche bags with 'R U OK? day'. All over facebook people are making a bit of a joke about it & I understand thst not everyone has to have the same opinion as me because lets face it, that would suck and there would be too many people that need to shut the heck up, like me!! I am also going to admit that i can be pretty silly sometimes even a bit immature when it comes to something totally not funny, but mental illness & suicide..... NOT FUNNY!!

I had a 'friend' on my facebook write a status as 'R U STILL COMING DOWN FROM THE WEEKEND', now, if you are still 'coming down' from the drugs you took on the weekend, your a dickhead & you probably will end up with a severe mental illness because thats what drugs do to you buddy!! Also a few 'shut the fuck up with the r u ok statuses' & 'if one more person asks if im ok i wont be ok'. I wish more people would genuinely ask me if im ok and sit there and listen to me whinge about how im so alone & not coping with this whole mum thing, or how tom doesnt listen when i say take the bins out or pick up your empty beer bottles or do the dishes, or my period pain, or how i have no money or basically anything without cutting in and telling me something totally unrelated.

I probably dont ask enough or ask the right people but lately after reading a story about serious mental illness & suicide that hurts me down to my toes i have been a little more aware and trying my hardest to be patient & caring when someone has an issue that they tell me about or that i know is there but they are not ready to talk about because depression & anxiety & mental illness is serious & ugly & so so painful, not only to the person who is suffering but the people who love the sufferer (is that a word?).

So this year is the first year where i will be super aware of this cause & really give a crap about people  that may be suffering & talk about it when i am struggling and i hope that one day i can help someone who is not OK to be OK.
As for now, im going to go play in my freshly mowed lawn with E girl & try not to be to cranky about the people who are having a joke about R U OK? day because last year i didnt really know much about it, I didnt joke about it but i wasnt as aware as I am today!!


I hope your all OK  xoxo

So im back to blog tonight becaue im super happy & super inspired by a beautiful mumma friend who is also a blogger friend, who revamped my blog!!!! thank you daisy!! I love it! Also, i have a new follower who i dont know in real life & go for coffee & playdates with - thank you new blog-friend, as soon as im done here im going to pop over and have blog-coffee and follow you!! to top all that off, i put a photo up of that beautiful sun shiney face that belongs to my little E (aint she cute!).

Tonight im going to talk a little more about me & my life as a mumma! Im only a young mumma, almost 21 in fact, but dont let the age fool you, I like to think of myself as pretty mature for my age and as soon as i heard those special word come  from the doctors mouth and thought my life was over i grew up pretty damn quick!! I still enjoy a good  night out drinking with the girls, only i try not to write myself off to bad because i know i have to get up at 7 the next day and cant nap my hangover off!!

We live in a small town with no family, my family are a 6 hour drive away & awesomes family are a 15 hour drive away, so its just us here! We didnt plan on having babies and being engaged for at least 5 years and I had just spent a whole week cuddling my best friends newborn while visiting in QLD saying 'O hes so cute but i dont want one for a loooong time' we flew home from QLD on the sunday and on tuesday morning i woke up with horrible pains in the tummy so bad i couldnt stand up so off to the hospital i went & the nurse looked me over made me pee in a cup & said 'now, is there any chance you could be pregnant?' me & awesome looked at each other and said no, awesome throwing in 'i fucking hope not!' with a laugh & 10 minutes later while awesome was out having a ciggy the nurse came in and told me the news and told me she was a little worried how my partner would react after his little comment!!! But when he came back in and seen me sitting there ballimg my eyes out he said 'youre preggas arent ya' (he's a keeper!) & gave me the biggest its going to be ok hug ever!! So after being told our options and awesome saying 'we smoke should we stop that' & 'can you write down the name of the vitamins i need to buy & a dr we should see' we went home & while i was crying my eyes out sayin i cant be a mum i work 12 hour shifts and i love my job and my life is over i cant do this i forget to eat dinner most nights, awesome was calling EVERYONE sharing the good news!! For 2 weeks i cried and he was skipping around town telling everyone!! But thats ok it wasnt his fanny that was going to get torn open in 9 months!!!

We talked about moving to be closer to my family or his but decided to stay put and prove to everyone that we could do it, and its been so hard, we havent been out to dinner on our own since she was born and we never get 'us' time and when im so stressed out that i chain smoke and knit until my mind is in its happy place, i just wish i had my mum here to help out!! But then i have that pleasure of knowing I have survived this on my own, my baby is happy and healthy and thats because of me, us. Just us. I have not yet called my mum in tears asking her to come stay with me for a few days even though i have typed that msg over and over but never pressed send. Now im not trying to complain or call poor me, Im just pretty damn proud of what we have achieved so far!! Im back at work, supposed to be only doing 2 nights a week, i start at 6 so Miss E is fed, bathed & ready for bed by the time awesome gets home & i leave but this week ive done 5 nights, im definately not taking on more shifts anymore, I miss putting my girl to bed & catching those few 'us' hours with awesome. So im just so proud & so happy, I mean we are human we fight and hate each other and yell & say to awesome as he is about to go hang with his friends on a saturday afternoon beacuse he had a long week at work that if he goes im going to leave E here while i go have some me time (which i never have and NEVER would but we all say things like that when we have had the long exhausting week at home with a baby!).

After spending those 2 weeks crying and being afraid to be in charge of a human being, I look at that gorgeous smile & teach her something new or watch her let go of the furniture I think to myself, 'WOW, I made her from scratch, I did it - Im that awesome!!'

And then there was this week ....

Happy Friday everyone!!! I'm home from work, I'm clean & showered, I've had my glass if wine & apple pie & ice cream - thank you captain awesome, and as I lay here realizing I started this blooging thing and haven't really been committed to it fully,kinda like giving up smoking - keep going Mel you will get there, I still haven't put a photo up & really quite honestly I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing!! I'm going to visit a mummy friend next week & she's going to make it all pretty for ms & teach me how to do it, she did try to explain how to use 'drop box'on my iPhone but I can't remember for the life of me what she said, I remember clicking & photos and then I got confused!!

So tonight, in true friday style, I'm going to reminisce on my week. Ah, my week. Well Miss E was pretty crabby this week, let's hope there's another tooth coming through she only has one and looks a little like chucky, you know the evil little doll, but much cuter (yes, I DO think my baby is the cutest ever!) but tantrums and 'NNNNO'i really don't appreciate it or the no sleep thing, or the screaming for no reason or only going to sleep for daddy. I don't like any if it! We had a play date today with cupcakes and all, even a breakfast date and she was still pretty crabby! She had fun with the kids of course, my girl LOVES other kids she kisses & cuddles, I actually caught her in her room with her door shut with a baby boy just yesterday, they were talking to each other, but come on, we all know the rule, no boys in your room with the door shut!!!!

Also, my phone is not working. It's really hurting me. I haven't spoken to my mum in 2 days, we got our home phone disconnected be aide we both have mobiles & never used it, we would get the occasional call from someone asking for a Chloe, but there's no Chloe living here!! But my phone has been disconnected, not sure why, but I've got my man onto it, he works for good old Telstra, o how I hate them. I really angering being so out of touch with my friends & family & my 10,000 facebook checks a day, just incase someone invited me to play farmvile (I most certainly do not play it, no matter how many requests I get, still not tempted!) It really sucks. So I'm hoping that very soon it's fixed!!

We are also car shopping. Something I've been dying to do for a long time, we have been without a car for 6 months now, and it's not so bad because we live in a small town & it gives me motivation to get off my ass & go for a walk but we have Miss E's birthday which we are having in newcaste so kinda need a set of wheels to get to & fro, I don't think E will w Anna sit in the pramwith some apple slices that long!! I'm really in love with the Holden cruzeiro, I don't think I'm going to budge actually, but this whole car shopping thing is super stressful!!! So I've been drinking wine, every say this week!!


So it has been a little stressful at times this week, but it's been sunny, o so sunny, and warm all week! It's wonderful, me & E have been going walking everyday, we took a trip to the park, we had afternoon tea in the back yard the other day & she learnt to stick her finger up mummy's nose!! Nice. So all in all, who cares about the crappy stuff, I come home from work after a crap afternoon with E, a mental shift (turns out I CANT do it on my own lol) I get home & my beautiful girl is sound asleep & I know in the morning she's going to wake up & be so happy & so excited to see her mumma & it will seem like the best week ever!

Happy weekending xoxo

Then there's my birthday weekend - well that's a long story, maybe even for another time .....

One of many blog posts of me bragging about my girl!!

So this is my second post, yay for me!!! And I'm here to talk about my girl, Miss Ella Jean, or miss thing as I like to call her at times although lately it's all the time!!

She's 10 months at the moment and my god is she cute (bias much?) but really she is freaking cute! She is crawling, pulling herself up and walking along stuff & babbling on constantly. Miss Thing LOVES music, a little tune comes on tele and she starts bopping around and smiling!!

She has always been a generally happy baby, a nice easy pregnancy, a few migraines here and there and super swollen, well, everywhere but nothing major, then she came 5 days early nice & quick (yep 6 hours & natural, it's ok I'd hate me to) and a perfect feeder from the start. I only fed a short time because she had a tongue tie and started becoming hard work to feed then reflux on top of that so feeds every hour or so ( I forget about this alot & curse myself for stopping but my favorite mummy friend, who would have told me to stop being a princess & stick to it if she felt the need, reminds me of how painful it was getting all the time) so onto formula we went and wow was our unsettled waking at night baby super settled & sleeping all night now!! She always had a smile for everyone, never cared being away from mummy, Played happily on her own for hours, is now not so happy and smiley for everyone and barely plays happily on her own & boy is it tiring!!

While visiting a mummy friend & her gorgeous babies yesterday Miss Thing started biting.... Not. Happy. Then yelling at them & me & wouldn't share her toys, and they weren't even HER toys they were their toys!!! I'm far from impressed! You see, we are all on our lonesome here, no family, ouR family are the friends we have made, and us! So E doesn't see a big variety of people and we were house bound for 2 weeks with me sick then her sick and rain & germs & blah, so for 2 weeks we didn't see anyone really and E didn't get to play with any other babies and got held for 4 days straight, I let her sleep on me while she was sick because I was sad that she was sick & she liked it!! So now she is way to used to being held & hadn't seen other kids for 2 weeks & it seems that she's finding it hard to re adjust!!

So - as I sum up my really awesome blog post that you love reading SO much that you recommend it to your friends, I ask you this, how can I stop my precious little bubba from biting, being nasty & spoilt To other children & babies??? Any ideas or suggestions?? Am I over reacting??

Thanks for stopping by xoxo

First Timer .. Let's see how this goes!

Hi there!!
Ok so this is my first go at this, so if I'm a bit crap, bare with me & stick around, I might get better!!
I'm Mel - I have a gorgeous bubba Miss Ella, she is 10 months at the moment & pretty bloody cute!! Then there's Tom, he's my partner, he can be pretty awesome at times!! We are living in downtown young, it's coming up to 2 years of living here & we survived it, go us! We moved here from hervey bay QLD because we were bored & it sounded fun then I got a pretty cool job, apprentice chef, 5 months later I found out we were expecting Miss E! So that brings us to now!
I've been getting a little bored lately, as bored as you can get with a 10 month old who has not long started crawling & cruising along my furniture & have been stalking a few blogs & really loving slot of them, so I thought I'd give it a go!! Im not gonna' lie, I'm pretty nervous about it! Mainly because I don't want people to think I'm boring or offensive in any way!! But I hope you like it & I hope you follow me! I will most probably be jumping on to either have a good old whinge & vent or just ramble on about something.
I have a few mumma friends who are bloggers so I'll be definately getting some help off them & hopefully my next post will be a little more exciting! So stay tuned, please!!

As for now, I'm off to watch home & away and drink my glass of wine!!