Yes, it really really does!! I read quite a few blogs & I love it! There is some really excellent ones out there but then there's some really horrible ones! Or the cool ones get attacked. Bloggers are nasty! Sorry - Some bloggers are nasty. I just can't buy into it! I really don't need it!
As mentioned before, I'm on my own now with the monster. So I am feeling like my parenting is on constant watch by friends & family. It scares me! It hurts me. Because at the moment I'm being told every day "you need to put Ella into daycare just one day a week". Eeeeeekkkkk! I've never been a fan of the whole day care thing, she's only 16 months old so please don't tell me - just because you work at a day care centre - "you need to out her in to get her ready for school". Shut up. Seriously. But then I have my family saying things like "put her in so you can have some YOU time & do your tafe courses and do beauty from home like you want to" (YOU time.. What's that) or "you need yo find your own life & not just be ellas mum bevause uou will end up sad & lonely" which I get and I appreciate the love, but I'm scared and I'm not ready, I think Ella is, but I'm not! So maybe a trial run could do.
But the constant judging!! Wow. I am doing the absolute best I know how right now and feel like a failure as is, without the judging!! Then I read these blog posts & see te nasty comments and debates & literally get anxiety! So I'm thinking of revamping the blog while I decide to blog or not to blog & to daycare and have a life or to not daycare and be a mum!!
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